i have the new found need to cut the dead bits and wastes of time from my life and start again.

bad things happened. of which probably the four people that have ever read this know. and unless the shock just hasnt set in yet i think im dealing with it very well. today is my frist planned walk into town alone which im quite excited about because i want to cope alone. although ill be home in plenty of daylight and knowing me ill cave and get a taxi. im back to work on monday trying to cope with one constantly dilated eye, oh yeah i have eye trauma or something and i have to put steroid drops in it and dilate it three times a day.

shitty shit shit.

im so glad i realised im not a victim. im really happy that its all stirred thoughts about how society does treat women, and the utter disgust that has borne from my insides that the prostitutes are being blamed for this. well it was a prostitute that got raped first. she was a woman at risk as much as i am. its the prostitutes that came forward and said they think they might ahve seen the boy that is attacking people. theyre the ones that come together as a community. and what is everyone else doing?

when i can type with two eyes open i will write properly about what happened.